"The most precious gift we can offer others is our presence. When mindfulness embraces those we love, they will bloom like flowers." ~Thich Nhat Hanh

Words I should take to heart. I have been lacking in the mindfulness department for a while it seems. And for this I am sorry. I will do my best to be more in tune and aware and put forth a positive presence for not only those I love, but for all.



Today I put you to rest. With tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. I must seek peace.


A Quote

"You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.”

- Maya Angelou

I had the privilege of meeting Ms. Angelou when I was in elementary school. She came and did a reading for us in the library. I will never forget it.


A Conversation of Sorts

"...There is a powerful delegation in us that lobbies every moment for contentment. How will you ever find peace unless you yield to love?..." - Rabia

"Where do you find those willing to yield to love in all of its imperfectness?" - Me

"Rumi says: 'Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.' ... It seems the hardest part is the internal work of our own hearts, and knowing that all the fears and flaws, and the courage to look at them, are part of the perfection." - A friend

One person in particular comes to mind when I think about this. They have built up so many barriers within that they have shut out love almost completely except from very very few. And it almost seems they are proud of it. They refuse to look at the fears and flaws and just seem to accept that love for them is out of reach completely. To me this is extremely sad. I for one would hate to be this way. To shut myself off from all the good that love can bring and all the good that it is. To go cold. I would rather take love and all the pain that can come with it than spend a loveless life alone. I hope this person can seek and find all of their barriers. I really do.

One last piece of food for thought on the subject from dearly departed Mother Theresa:
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."


"What makes me think...

I could start clean slated? The hardest to learn was the least complicated." - Emily Sailers



2010. May you bring me positive change. I am in dire need. Thanks.


The new year approaches

and I have absolutely no words to describe how fuckin shitty this year has been. If and/or when I do I'll let ya know. For now: FUCK YOU 2009.